She Reads Truth | Colossians

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“Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.” -Colossians 3:12-17

How amazing that I get to take off the past, the darkness, the ugly, the lies, and put on the beautiful: the kindness, the compassionate hearts, patience, ect!

Also, let’s be honest, how difficult is it to sometimes put these characteristics on? During a hard day at work or home, I don’t want to practice humility. I don’t like when others get credit for work I’ve done. I don’t always want to practice kindness or compassion when I’m driving and someone slows down unexpectedly or cuts me off! But that’s when your old self gets to die over and over and the Spirit gets to breath life and His love into you! ❤

Sin has no dominion over me…. but, man, oh, man, does it try so hard to creep into my life and become habitual. Each time a choice is made: to turn to sin or to turn to God and grow closer to Him. This might not work for everyone, but right now when sin presents itself I literally ask myself… would I rather do this sin or would I rather turn to God. UGH. Does that show where your heart is at in the moment or what?! No lies, sometimes I choose laziness, pride, lust over the freedom of Christ. THANK YOU JESUS FOR FORGIVENESS AND GRACE! Thank you Lord for being the ultimate, for conquering ALL sin. I am so sorry I choose it sometimes. Help me God to turn from it and to truly embrace complete light.

My prayer today, and a lot of days, is that the peace of God is evident in my life and that I’m thankful throughout the WHOLE day for His gifts, and choose Him over sin. That ALL I do today (from driving to cooking, from checking emails to meetings at work) I do well for Him and His glory.

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She Reads Truth| Colossians

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Sometimes (ummm, a lot of the time…) I’m worried that people can’t tell I’m a follower of Christ. Like what sets me a part from the do-gooders of today who don’t believe in God? Can you, honestly and genuinely, say “to God be the glory,” each and every time you receive a compliment/ praise (to where people don’t want to shove you off a cliff?)?

I don’t know why, but while reading Colossians 2, Matthew 15:1-9, & Romans 7:4 I was struck with these thoughts. Really these questions have nothing to do with the verses, but kept creeping in my mind, so that’s what was meditated on this past week.

“Therefore, as you received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in him, rooted and built up in him and established in the faith, just as you were taught, abounding in thanksgiving.” -Colossians 2:6-7

* What sets me a part from the “do-gooders” of today who don’t believe in God? EXACTLY THAT- they don’t believe and follow the Lord. That’s the only difference. People still want to and can do such beautiful, amazing things in life- because we were all created in God’s image. Humans don’t get to choose to be image bearers, we just are. So it makes sense that people who are atheist or agnostic can still do selfless acts of love…

* So how do I let others know that my ‘selfless acts of love’ are done because of Christ and not of me (because in all honesty I’m super selfish and would pick serving myself over serving someone else any day). Or when someone compliments your outfit that day are you suppose to say “to God be the glory,” or “all things through Christ?” I think what I’m comfortable with is just being genuine in response. To sincerely accept the words of encouragement- if it feels appropriate to say what a joy it was to serve, but if it doesn’t feel real, just to say thank you. I don’t think you have to continuously verbally state that all good things come through Christ, but to live a life pointing toward Him. Right? IDK. Someone help me please.

Anyway those were my thoughts from the readings, which had nothing to do with the readings. Thanks for reading this mess of a post…. and for hopefully providing me with your insight on how to better honor God.

She Reads Truth | Colossians

What are you reading right now? Currently on my  nightstand is Crazy Rich Asians. In my car (you know, just in case I get to a meeting early, or have to wait somewhere for a long-ish time): Big Little Lies (if Reese Witherspoon read it, I will too). At my gym locker (because my gym is a spa…and I have a problem): The Program (gotta love that YA fiction). I’m loving each one of these book so far, they do bring joy and such an escape, but none are spirit-filling, or growing me as a believer. For that, the book I’m going through is Colossians.

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I’m using She Reads Truth as a guide- it’s great (so great that this is the 2nd time I’m going through Colossians with them). It’s helping me to keep on track on where I am, what other verses correlate with where I’m reading, and to get other people’s encouragement/ insights on the verses.

So far I’m only on Day 6 in Colossians, and am in awe of Christ. He is so good. God created us, and all of the seen and unseen (WHAT IS THE UNSEEN?).

Another truth it reveals: we are made for him. Sometimes in life I feel as if I have no purpose, and reading the words that I was “from Him, and we exist for Him.” (1 Corinthians 8:6ish) reminds me not to believe in those lies. I have a reason for existence.

Also, Colossians reminds me how to pray for others. I should ask the Lord that my sisters/ brother would grow in the His knowledge & wisdom, bearing fruit, being strengthened by God (with endurance and patience), thanking God for Truth and forgiveness.

“And so, from the day we heard, we have not ceased to pray for you, asking that you may be filled with the knowledge of his will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, o as to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him: bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God; being strengthened with all power, according to his glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy; giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in light. He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.”- Colossians 1:9-14

Colossians is such a sweet reminder of how much Christ loves us, the church. And, to me, served as a conviction- that when a brother/ sister tells you they’re hurting (or you see it) we are suppose to pray without ceasing! I, usually, just say a quick prayer asking God to cover that individual with peace and strength, but Paul reminds us that we need to continue that prayer every day until God has answered.

Thanks for letting me ramble, cant wait to dig deeper into this book. ❤

“love is now mingled with grief”

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watching the news depresses me. there is such ugliness & hate out out there. when i think about how much people chose not to work together for the goodness of humankind, & how much people do not communicate (oh they talk, loudy, yes they do, but very little communication takes place).

sometimes when it gets too dark, i take a lotr day. i watch hobbits, elves, dwarfs, man, and a great wizard come together. against all odds, working together to save their world. in the darkness of evil, goodness still prevails. & how much more beautiful is this love in the midst of hurt.

thank you J.R.R. Tolkien for providing a little hope in these times. for giving the perfect trilogy to binge watch… & cause reflection on how we, human-kind…though with our differences, can come together in love to help save our world.

 

 

Treat Yo’Self (lavender edition)

I’m a firm believer in the Tom Haverford/ Donna Meagle mantra of “treat yo’self.” I think, as an introvert (that’s cool to be now, right?), treating myself means a day away from people. Where better to go than a lavender farm!?

Lavender is LITERALLY my favorite smell. The drive up to Purple Adobe Lavender Farm was less than peaceful. The drive is only suppose to be 1.5(ish) hours from Albuquerque, but due to terrible traffic and small town fiestas the drive took 2.5 hours! I do not handle stressful driving well. I can admit that.

BUT all of my aggression dissipated as soon as I stepped out of the car at the farm! I mean, seriously, it has that much of a calming effect. The farm has the cutest little tea shop where they were serving lavender tea, gluten-free scones, and lavender gelato. Ummm, yes please to all three!

They also have a meditation garden. It was a sweet place to pray to God, and thank Him for this day. For that gorgeous NM sky. For different smells and tastes. For time apart from people. For people. And for being able to relax and find rest in Him. I’m going through Hebrews now with a friend, and am reminded that taking a day of rest is not selfish, it’s not lazy- it’s for Jesus. And not in the “that’s my excuse for doing nothing today,” way- it’s for Jesus in that when you rest you should be finding restoration in Him, and His goodness.

“10 for anyone who enters God’s rest also rests from their works,[e] just as God did from his. 11 Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will perish by following their example of disobedience.” -Hebrews 4:10-11

I left Purple Adobe dreaming of growing fields of lavender when I’m older and have a large farm (slightly unrealistic because there is so much work involved in a farm & I have the opposite of a green thumb). A girl can dream, right?

Thanking God For My Troubles

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(and yes that is whipped cream on top of my coffee.)

Each time I open “Jesus Calling,” I am in awe of how good God is- and how perfect His timing is. While I was prepared to spend today (Mondays, am I right?) throwing myself a pity party about how I am jobless, He instructs me to not let my rage and self- pity lead me farther from Him. Ummm perfect. Is it easy to thank God during this time: no. Is it necessary: yes.

I am a planner and it’s difficult to plan when I’m uncertain of where I am going. I am so THANKFUL that wherever my next job is, whatever it is- God is with me. He is sovereign. AND I can serve Him in any job. His grace is so much more than my problems. (and I am also so thankful that this is my problem. Thank you Lord for giving me such a manageable one first.)

Today’s devotional pretty much said that thanking Him isn’t easy and doesn’t always come natural- but the more you do it, the more genuine it is. I read that as ‘fake it until you make it.’ I’ve heard that when you’re having a bad day, to smile &/ laugh. They aren’t real smiles or laughs, but these fake moments actually lower your stress and release happy hormones. I feel that’s the same way with giving God your thankfulness of bad moments. Do I really mean it right now? Maybe not, but when He leads me out of this darkness- I will praise Him. And then next time life’s issues arise, I will remember His faithfulness and thank Him for the opportunity to trust Him.

“4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”

Philippians 4:4-6

Thanking God for your sucky day also saves us from falling ‘into the depths of despair,” (thanks Anne of Green Gables for my dramatic flair). By recognizing His power over our problems, does not negate the problem, but it does protect us from the lies that we are going through the problem alone. He is with us always. And it’s really nice to have someone support you during the difficult times.

So thank you God for this period of my life that I’m unemployed. Thank you Lord for the unknown future.

“I love the Lord, for he heard my voice;
    he heard my cry for mercy.
Because he turned his ear to me,
    I will call on him as long as I live.

The cords of death entangled me,
    the anguish of the grave came over me;
    I was overcome by distress and sorrow.
Then I called on the name of the Lord:
    Lord, save me!”

The Lord is gracious and righteous;
    our God is full of compassion.
The Lord protects the unwary;
    when I was brought low, he saved me.

Return to your rest, my soul,
    for the Lord has been good to you.”

Psalm 116:1-7

(Edi Cat was trying to eat my whipped cream. No thank you, kitten.)

(Edi Cat was trying to eat my whipped cream. No thank you, kitten.)

I Am Not Enough

(This title has nothing to do with looks or overall self-worth- you are valuable.)

Today I woke upon the wrong side of the bed. Literally and figuratively. Literally, because rolling over to the other side was easier than pushing Dolce Dog off. Figuratively, I have no idea why. I was excited to be getting breakfast with my sister, but overwhelmed with spending a day off with people.

Well let’s just say the morning didn’t go as planned, and I didn’t like that. I dramatically left my sister’s apartment in tears. I text two of my closest friends, but neither was available right away. As I drove off, I felt like turning to God, but then part of me rebelled and just turned on the radio.

I drove to my parents. Lanay called me to talk some love into me, but my nephew kept yelling into my ear- so I was pretty distracted. I do know Lanay’s advice was Godly. I do know that I didn’t like it.

The day was basically a day of me avoiding God and trying to turn to others. I went to Gayle’s work to drop off some bridal shower invites, while there I was hoping another friend would be able to hang. She wasn’t. So I called another friend. She wasn’t available either.

When I got to my apartment I just kept repeating over and over “Go to Jesus, Go to Him.” I washed dishes. BUT FINALLY HE WON. I opened up “Jesus Calling,” to today’s devotional. I am so glad I did.

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ”

-James 1:2

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”

-2 Corinthians 12:9

While I am not thrilled that I feel less than worthy today, and while I don’t like feeling second. I began today with ‘inadequate resources’ and I didn’t rely on Jesus. Instead this morning I just rushed through my day and felt sorry for myself. The moment I realized I was feeling like poop I should have taken a few minutes to rest in Him. I am weak, but He is strong. We sing this as children, but it is so true to our everyday lives. He is stronger than me in everything. When I feel unworthy- Jesus is worthy. He blesses me with that. When I feel second- be glad that He is my all. There are no firsts, seconds, or thirds with Him. He is it.