Why I Need Flowers


Flowers remind me of my mom (she’s still alive… just to clarify any confusion). My mom is a gardener, she’s a lover of growing new life and caring for it. She also believes in having fresh cut flowers in the house (and giving them to others!). I suck at gardening and did not get that from my momma. I did receive the fresh flower obsession though.

Fresh flowers comfort me. I look to them and I, not only appreciate the beauty and joy they provide to my desk or table, but I also hear my mom through them. When I’m having a great day and see the flowers, they remind me to call her. If it’s an ok day, I hear her telling me to appreciate the little happinesses of life. On the terrible days, the flowers whisper, “it’s ok,” to me. They remind me to take time to reflect. Most of all, when I look at flowers in good and bad, I hear my mom pointing me to Christ.

For the majority of my life, flowers whispered. Today they scream.

Currently my tulips and chamomile shout 2 Thessalonians 3:5. As I sit here contemplating what my dreams are, where I should be, or if I’m even passionate about anything, they should to go to God. That my heart’s conflicts are to be given to Christ. The more I go to Him, the more clear my purpose is. My purpose is to serve Him. On some days that seems so vague, like it’s not specific enough of an answer. But today the flowers yell it to me- as unclear about my career path, relationships, and life as I am- my steadfastness is is Christ! My focus should be in my pursuit of Him!

“May the Lord direct your hearts to the love of God & to the steadfastness of Christ.”  -2 Thessalonians 3:5

I can sometimes dwell on my ‘sufferings,’ I know that they will only last a little while. And ‘a little while’ can mean a lot of different things. For flowers, ‘a little while’ is a week or so. And for us? In the scheme of eternity it can be years. Our sufferings can last a day or a century.

In my mind, a century of suffering doesn’t sound great, but in my spirit I trust in His grace. That the hope Christ has brought to us brings more light to my life than all the flowers in the world can. I can’t comprehend the trillions of years past that where I’m in His eternal glory. And the trillion years past that where I’m still there, apart from hurt and confusion. AND FOR ALL ETERNITY AFTER!

I love that God can use flowers to connect me to Him. That He gave my mom the love of His creation that she could share with me. And I really love that His truth is bigger than my indecision and fear of the unknown.

“And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eterntal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen.” – 1 Peter 5:10-11



Psalm 25


I’m trying to follow along as my church does the Bible in a year via the ‘ReadScripture’ app. It’s been difficult, but also super sweet. Difficult because we literally just spend 6 months going over Genesis so I really was just skimming over it and not actually take time to meditate upon the Word. Sweet because His truth is everywhere throughout the Bible. Right now we’re in Exodus…. so that’s been fun (not). I appreciate that through some of the not as….ummm… life applicable Scripture, the daily reading is paired with a Psalm (actually all the readings are paired with a Psalm!).

To be honest, I’m probably spending more time reflecting on the Psalm than I am on any of the chapters of Exodus. The description of how to build the sanctuary and all the details are very precise, and that’s cool… but also makes me so happy that the old is over, and Jesus is the new.

the 25th, was the 25th Psalm.

25 To you, O LORD, I olift up my soul.

O my God, in you I ptrust;

qlet me not be put to shame;

rlet not my enemies exult over me.

Indeed, snone who wait for you shall be put to shame;

they shall be ashamed who are twantonly utreacherous.

vMake me to know your ways, O LORD;

teach me your paths.

Lead me in your wtruth and teach me,

for you are the God of my salvation;

for you I wait all the day long.

Remember your xmercy, O LORD, and your steadfast love,

yfor they have been from of old.

Remember not zthe sins of my youth or my transgressions;

according to your asteadfast love remember me,

for the sake of your goodness, O LORD!

bGood and upright is the LORD;

therefore he cinstructs sinners in the way.

He leads the humble in what is right,

and teaches the humble his way.

10  All the paths of the LORD are dsteadfast love and faithfulness,

for those who keep his covenant and his testimonies.

11  For your ename’s sake, O LORD,

pardon my guilt, for it is fgreat.

12  Who is the man who fears the LORD?

Him cwill he instruct in the way that he should choose.

13  His soul shall gabide in well-being,

and his hoffspring ishall inherit the land.

14  jThe friendship2 of the LORD is for those who fear him,

and he makes known to them his covenant.

15  My keyes are ever toward the LORD,

for he will lpluck my feet out of the net.

16  mTurn to me and be gracious to me,

for I am lonely and afflicted.

17  The troubles of my heart are enlarged;

bring me out of my distresses.

18  nConsider my affliction and my trouble,

and forgive all my sins.

19  Consider how many are my foes,

and with what violent hatred they hate me.

20  Oh, guard my soul, and deliver me!

oLet me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you.

21  May integrity and uprightness preserve me,

for I wait for you.

22  pRedeem Israel, O God,

out of all his troubles.

I Will Bless the Lord

Of David.

“Make me to know your ways, O LORDteach me your paths. Lead me in your truth 

and teach mefor you are the God of my salvationfor you I wait all the day long.”

As we wait on the Lord, I pray we are joyous in Him always, that we trust Him, that we are eager to learn more about Him, and grow our relationship with Him. I ask that He comforts us in the pains of this world, and that through our waiting, we are being the light He commands us to be.

These reminders have served me so importantly these past few days. My mind has been in a slight state of delirium (men. hmphf. crushes. argh.) and trying to remind myself that my purpose for eternity is not to be married, or not…. my purpose isn’t to to dwell on my troubles, because these next 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 years on this earth are literally the worst years of my eternity, why dwell on them? I get a trillion years after to praise Jesus at His feet, and the next trillion after that will be glorifying Him too, and the next trillion? Painless, worryless, doubtless…. so good.

She Reads Truth | Matthew 17 & 18


Do you ever read the Bible and think that the disciples were scaredy-cats or just plain dumb? I do. LOL. But then when I re-read and really think about how I would react, I realize that’s probably exactly how I would react! Ummm yes, if I was hiking and a bright, cloud started talking to me, NO MATTER WHAT IT SAID, I would be freaking out in fear/ confusion. FREAKING OUT. But also, how sweet to have the comfort of Jesus saying to not have fear and to get up. I just imagine being pee-your-pants afraid, and at the sound of his voice just being enveloped in warmth, and safety. I have to remember this (a lot) when I’m nervous- and you know what? Sometimes I actually feel the warmth.

Also when you think of the disciples, it’s like… they had a lot of faith (AND got to witness the signs of Christ… so I mean, they should have been ballin’ in the trusting the Lord department). They were doing a lot in the name of the Lord. A lot. BUT yet still, their faith wasn’t the comparable to the mustard seed. DANG. What’s mine comparable to? Like a speck of sand?

When I read the stories of Jesus, I’m encouraged that we, truly are made in the image of God. And also the freedom that THERE IS NO WAY WE WILL EVER BE GOD. We may have the mercy capacity to forgive a friend, a co-worker, a sibling 7 times for the same grievance, but 77? Oh no way- there is no way. I can’t do 77 without the Spirit. I can’t move mountains without God. I can’t get to heaven without Jesus.

As much as a control freak as I can be, there is such peace knowing that God’s love and unending forgiveness is free- and because of  this I am no longer a slave to the “can’ts” in life.

Also, if you haven’t checked out She Reads Truth… do it. Such a great resource.



She Reads Truth| Advent


(sometimes quiet time is much, much easier when there’s a cozy space and no one around…)

Advent 2017: Joy to the World: Day 10

“But now the righteousness of God has been manifested apart from the law, although the Law and the Prophets bear witness to it— the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction: for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God’s righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.

Then what becomes of our boasting? It is excluded. By what kind of law? By a law of works? No, but by the law of faith. For we hold that one is justified by faith apart from works of the law.” -Romans 3:21-28

God is so good (I feel like I begin all my quiet time saying this). We ALL are the worst and have sinned. Daily we receive His “grace upon grace.” I can’t explain, how freeing this is. I know so many unbelievers who think Christianity is just a bunch of rules and oppression. AHHHH, how do I scream with love and tell them that there is freedom in His sacrifice! He lived a perfect life so we don’t have to! Each and every time we fail, He is there to cover us in His blood. And what do we have to do for this forgiveness and love?


It’s the best gift ever. His grace and His righteousness are sweet, precious gifts; that we do not deserve, but are abundantly given. ❤

Ugh, now comes the difficult part- we can’t boast in ourselves or our works. It’s hard because I’m always looking for some way to look like I have my life together in an aesthetically pleasing way (even if my life is falling a part(ish)). That I’m living a life of lavish, instead of a life lavishly fulfilled by Christ. I can lie and say I’m boasting in Christ when I post something, but am I truly in awe in His glory and creativity? Or does it just look pretty and I need the envy or validation from others? Sometimes yes, sometimes no.

Today I was reminded to check myself before I post; and if I am boasting in myself or the Lord. I’m convicted to thank Him for His gift, the only gift ever needed. To praise Him and be filled with a crazy amount of joy that I WILL NEVER BE EXPECTED TO BE PERFECT! ❤ To stop comparing myself to others, because we’re all in the ‘we-stink-without-Christ boat’ together! Ugh, such a good reading today from She Reads Truth.


She Reads Truth | Colossians

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“Wives, submit to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord. Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them. Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord. Fathers, do not provoke your children, lest they become discouraged. Bondservants, obey in everything those who are your earthly masters, not by way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but with sincerity of heart, fearing the Lord. Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ. For the wrongdoer will be paid back for the wrong he has done, and there is no partiality.

Masters, treat your bondservants justly and fairly, knowing that you also have a Master in heaven.” -Colossians 3:18-4:1

Honest moment: to me, this section of Colossians is so difficult.

It’s difficult because these verses have been, and continue to be, twisted so much in society. It mentions women being ‘submissive,’ slavery, ect. Ugh. Haters gonna hate, hate, hate.

BUT WE KNOW THE LORD, and He is good.

Submitting to your husband does not mean being a doormat; or being ok with being abused, not listened to, or controlled. NOT OK.

Obeying your parents does not mean being ok with being molested, neglected, or physically harmed. NOT OK.

Slavery is NOT OK. I hate the argument that it’s in the Bible, so Christians must be ok with it. N.O. It is in the Bible. Slavery is all over history. If you “conquered” an area, those who lived there became slaves. If you owed a debt to someone, you could work it off as a bondservant. Do I agree, no, but did it happen, yes. Since it did/ was happening, obviously the writer of Colossians needed to address it. He addressed it by saying LOVE your ‘bondservant,’ just as God loves you. Treat them fairly, and just. No abuse. No torture. Loving them as our Lord loves us.

I, through travels, have met people who were ‘slaves.’ They had no freedom. They lived in a country that was not their own. They didn’t speak the language. They worked for nothing. They couldn’t even talk to anyone. I pray for the two I met, I pray for the ones I haven’t met. I pray that someday they are free (spiritually & physically). I pray the person who has enslaved them changes their views on controlling people. I pray that they know they are loved.

So the above is all hard stuff to explain to the world, yeah?

Personally, the MOST difficult part is: “Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.”

Whatever I do? WHATEVER I DO? Driving? I do for the Lord. Washing dishes? I do for the Lord. Planning events? I do for the Lord. Making meal train meals? I do for the Lord.

Sometimes I’m lazy. Sometimes my work ethic sucks. During these times I NEED, NEED, NEED to remind myself that EVERYTHING I do is for God. Is my procrastination glorifying Him? Yes I need rest, and that is good, but is 12 hours of sleep the best way to show others His light?

Sometimes I get bummed when I’m not ‘noticed’ for doing things. Currently, at work, a coworker likes to get all the attention, and take a lot of the credit for my work. While I was venting about this, a friend reminding me that I don’t work for the glory of man. I do my job well for the glory of our King.

This is not easy. I want to be recognized for the work I do. I think hard work should be rewarded. I also think I need to continually repeat that my inheritance is not of this world. My rewards are following God. My reward is obeying God. YOU ARE SERVING THE LORD, DO IT WELL. (I’m going to repeat this like 100x times today. At least.)

Also check out Matthew 6:33Ephesians 5:22-6:9

She Reads Truth | Colossians


“Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.” -Colossians 3:12-17

How amazing that I get to take off the past, the darkness, the ugly, the lies, and put on the beautiful: the kindness, the compassionate hearts, patience, ect!

Also, let’s be honest, how difficult is it to sometimes put these characteristics on? During a hard day at work or home, I don’t want to practice humility. I don’t like when others get credit for work I’ve done. I don’t always want to practice kindness or compassion when I’m driving and someone slows down unexpectedly or cuts me off! But that’s when your old self gets to die over and over and the Spirit gets to breath life and His love into you! ❤

Sin has no dominion over me…. but, man, oh, man, does it try so hard to creep into my life and become habitual. Each time a choice is made: to turn to sin or to turn to God and grow closer to Him. This might not work for everyone, but right now when sin presents itself I literally ask myself… would I rather do this sin or would I rather turn to God. UGH. Does that show where your heart is at in the moment or what?! No lies, sometimes I choose laziness, pride, lust over the freedom of Christ. THANK YOU JESUS FOR FORGIVENESS AND GRACE! Thank you Lord for being the ultimate, for conquering ALL sin. I am so sorry I choose it sometimes. Help me God to turn from it and to truly embrace complete light.

My prayer today, and a lot of days, is that the peace of God is evident in my life and that I’m thankful throughout the WHOLE day for His gifts, and choose Him over sin. That ALL I do today (from driving to cooking, from checking emails to meetings at work) I do well for Him and His glory.


real talk| being Christian & single


Being 28 is not old. But right now I feel like I’m missing some goals… ugh goals is not the right word, but it’s the word I have right now. Some ‘goals’ I have are to get married and have babies.

WHAT?!?! Where did this come from Liz? I mean I’ve always wanted to get married, but having babies has never been on my radar (except for adoption, I’ve always felt led to adopt). A while back in September I baby-sat my nephew for a few hours. During his nap, I just stared at him, prayed over him, and cried a little (creepy, right?). I prayed for his health, for him to know and love Jesus, and that he would be a kind, sweet man. I cried because it hit me… the baby bug hit me. A week later as I was in Target’s baby area, shopping for others, I started bawling. Like heavy tears. I had to leave. A week after that I sat in my dear friend’s home crying to her, being vulnerable and finally honest with another sister, about what my heart is going through. It’s safe to say I have started grieving over gifts that the Lord has not given me.

I know God is good, and my singleness is a gift (even if I don’t want this gift, I have it. USE IT, at least for now, USE IT!). My singleness does not mean I’m a second-class citizen of Christ (and thank you Lord that I don’t feel that way in my life, in my church, or in my group of good friends). My childlessness does not mean I was not made to love children, right now I’m looking for ways that I can love kids that need it. Sometimes, a lot of the time, being single sucks. I’m ok with saying that. It’s hard when you’re surrounded by happy couples with their sweet, adorable babies, especially when they only want to talk marraige and babies…

What I’ve learned from this is it’s ok to be sad that I’m not married (In the US 27.9 is actually the average age for a woman to marry, but I’m not average, right?). I can grieve over the fact that I want something that I might not get in my “correct timeline,” or ever. (OR EVER… and God is still good).

It’s ok be a little sad when all friends want to talk about is babies, but also to remember that I have been chosen to have a place in these babies’ lives too! What a blessing to be the aunt that points them to Christ. The aunt that always has sugar, or knows all the cool activities to do. It’s ok to be the socially awkward lady who cannot talk to good looking men…. but also wish she could. lol. It’s ok to be these things, but in the end it’s most important to know that following God is ALL I’m called to do. And I can do that single.